Well, I unexpectedly had a good week. I really want to express my gratitude to music. It is something that I have fallen out of until recently. I filled my time with podcasts, TV shows, and doom scrolling social media. Now, I didn't cut those out entirely, but I have scaled back heavily to replace it with listening to music. I believe that podcasts, and TV still play an important part for me, not doom scrolling though, but I needed to start incorporating music into the mix more. Now music is about 70% of my daily entertainment. There is a lot of "Dad" dancing that goes on around the house.

       Let's just say that today was a rollercoaster of emotions, but I want to think I made my way out of it better. It was a day of strong reflection on how I'm seen through the eyes of my child and my wife. Or I should say, how I envision I am seen through their eyes. It was not pretty, and there were moments of tears at the most inopportune times.

Today I wanted to talk about something that is very hard for me, having self-confidence. Friday's for me at work have a weird affect on my emotions and send my anxiety spiraling. Every Friday, I have a meeting with my supervisor, who I absolutely adore, but I always get extremely nervous before them. I have no reason to be lately, but I am so hard on myself that I start making up scenarios that would cause me to get in trouble.